Question: Many years before my grandmother passed away (Allah show her mercy!), I had thoughts of her dying? Now I feel extremely guilty for causing her death. Will Allah forgive me?
Wa alaykum assalam wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh,
Thank you for your important question.
It is okay! Thinking about someone dying does not mean that you killed them. You did not do anything wrong. There is no sin or wrong to forgive.
Try to step outside of yourself and imagine you were giving advice to someone in your exact scenario. Tell them that you are sad about the death of their grandmother and that it is okay to be sad. Tell them that they did not do anything wrong and that Allah is not angry with them.
Try and do this a few times on different days. InshaAllah, it will make you feel better.
I pray this helps.
[Ustadh] Farid Dingle
Checked and Approved by Shaykh Faraz Rabbani
Ustadh Farid Dingle has completed extensive years of study in the sciences of the Arabic language and the various Islamic Sciences. During his studies, he also earned a CIFE Certificate in Islamic Finance. Over the years he has developed a masterful ability to craft lessons that help non-Arabic speakers gain a deep understanding of the language. He currently teaches courses in the Arabic Language.